me and him.

So the last time i blogged about a guy, now re-reading it all over again, I've realized how stupid i sound. I used to never believe in love, i had never loved a guy, but then he came along, things were over for us, then i realized "i love him". I thought i loved him... Now thinking of it, i dont think i did. I think i just missed him alot. I miss talking to him, laughing with him and most importantly, being his friend. Loving him was not real. It was just me trying to force myself because I was jealous of him and everyone else. I wanted to know what love really feels like. I guess i haven't felt it yet?? >.<  I was mad that he completely forgot about me, and now he has a new GF. I just wanted the attention from him only.. I learned to accept all that now. Feelings can change, people say things that they think they meant at that time, like how he said he loves me the most and forever we'll be together. months later, i believed that. His words was the hope that kept me thinking oneday we'll be together again. How foolish of me =.=''''''''''

I will wait patiently till the next person comes along. <3

Hopefully the right person who shows me what love really is.
Im not desperate to know though ;x but it would be great to have a warm feeling and a person who is there to hug me, and protect me.
I'll promise myself to not believe so much of what he says because we are still young. His feelings can change, and theres lots of time left.

As im watching dramas, I envy the relationship the couples have. It's so cute and romantic ^ ^
I wish one day, my life can be similar to the drama . hehehehe.


I'm glad im over J though~ I completely had no feelings for him for 3months already?? o.o
I've been talking to this guy, lets call him Donghae, because he sorta reminds me of Donghae now, lol or maybe Lee Min Ho ? hmm.. He reminds me of both!! I think i'll go with Lee Min Ho because theres also another guy who reminds me of Donghae. Lets shorten Lee Min Ho to LMH :p

Well , I dont know why everytime i talk to LMH, i just get giggly and nervous inside lol. Since the day i met him, back in middle school till now, everytime we talk, our conversation would go on and on and on. I remember back in middle school, we would talk on myspace for a long time, we had so much comments! and during that time, I wasn't afraid to talk to him in person. I wasn't as nervous. I remember in math, everytime i stood up, i can feel my legs wobble or cracks LOLLLL. sounds so weird yeah ?? So i try to keep myself in my seat.
Now, we still talk a lot online. I think he's the only guy i kept a conversation with so long o.O'''

I tell myself, "oh we're just friends, we just have lots to talk about"
but many people think i like him,...... >o< at first , i didnt think so.. but now thinking about it, i am a little interested in him =.='''
Because of talking to LMH so much, I forgot about J. which is a good thing. I'm glad.

I dont want things to go awkwardly between us though' . i'm still confused whether i like him or not... =.='
I dont really think of him that much but when i talk to him, i keep smiling and laughinng LOL.

LMH, pls dont think im crazy... i cant help myself xD

The only thing that sucks is that we dont talk in person like before, and lots of other girls likes him. i stand no chance ;____;''''''



ok~ enough now hehehehe, i feel a little bit better now that i blog about this LOL, its like telling him but not telling him. you know?~ xP



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